Since the past few days i have been thinking about this word. "Attachment".......
Thers's also another one "change".......
Somehow these words have taken a new meaning in my life.
U get attached to a lot of things......
Especially me.....Very soon that tooo....
My mobile, my teddy, my books,my clothes,my pillow,my friends, my colleagues etc etc etc. The list is too long.
And then it is difficult to let go....
I have faced this problem since ages.....
I gave my old phone to my sis, but yet i feel its my own.
My friend, my neighbour of 17 years got married and went away. She started her new life and forgot about people she left behind. Now we are in touch. We talk on birthdays, anniversaries etc. In between we talk of how her office is and how my office is etc etc.
But the 17 years of sharing has ended.I can feel it.I dont blame her.To manage work with a new family, husband saas sasur etc is not an easy job, But i have lost out on a friend with whom i shared and cared.
Its difficult to let go...
I have lost touch with a friend whom i knew for 2 years.Good friend.But something somewhere went wrong. I lost there too.
When my manager left our office, i had tears in my eyes.Literally. Other ppl laughed at how naive i was.But I somehow idolised him (Though didnt work with him much). And i admired his way of working and wanted to learn so much from him.I couldnt let go.
Now i have left that office but i cant let go.....
I was speaking to a friend of mine from my old office the other day and just asking how is every1 else.Another friend came and said "baharwalon ko khabrein mat de" I knew he was joking. Thats the way he is always. But at that point those words stabbed me.I couldnt say a word. Just said bye and kept the phone.
Y did that word affect me so much.Its been 6-7 months, i left that place. But yet i have not been able to let go.......
Attachment is the word. Change is another.
Things change, feelings change, friends change, emotions change. But u cant remain attached to these.
U have to let go and move on....
I just wish all this wasnt so painful.....
Probably what people say is rite.
I am an emotional fool.
But cant separate this emotional me from myself.....
To be emotional is alrite.......
But u have to let go.....................
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3 comments:
hi sweety....
i know tht feeling lingers on...there r irritating times when u hv to scroll thru ur entire phonebook to find a person worth calling...but just let things move on.....tc...gd luck
Moving on is what i need to do....Hope i can do that soon... Bye tc...
well according to moi, what you should have is a best friend with whom you can share and she or he can act like your sounding board. People tend to make the mistake of putting their emotions in the wrong place and end up feeling bad. Case in point, is your friend, who has got married and left and no longer shares the same emotional equation with you, she probably doesn't have the same level of emotional bonding with you as you have for her, the inference you can draw can be in two ways, one is that people tend to move on and change and so do you have to do the same and secondly you should put that extra emphasis on seperating your accquaintances from our friends and your friends from your true / best friend.. because true friends are the ones who always remain the same to you come what the circumstances are.
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